introducing from left, shane, lala, me n xiaoziwu... at shilin guan di
Taiwan is so fun!!! really enjoyed the fifteen days there... have been the most fun times in this whole year... went to so many places, hualian,xitou,shilin night market, shidafuzhong,zhongzhenggaozhong.... and many more... feel that the people there are all so lively and friendly... also generally more good-looking, both guys and gals... mabbe cos they know how to doll up.. anw got to know a few taiwan friends like banyue, our adorable tour guide, bei ying sha shou chen da ge, and pple from the two schools... also had a lot of fun with pple in our group... wiki, wayne, shane, lala, datingting, xiaotingting, manman, xiaoziwu(purple haze), wanqi and so many more... and i got myself a new name... CHARLIE... it's diff from charlie wang, i'm charlie chocolate... haha... onli the taiwan peeps will understand... everybody seemed to have gone crazy... crazily fun!! really like the weather, like the scenery and everything that i've experienced there... met zhang shan wei and selina's sister too... so qiao.. I miss taiwan.. wanna go again... but right now back to my holiday hw... gtg do them now... there are some photos from the trip.. go click on photos!!

This week had been very busy... with play... went to class chalet on mon and tue... play cards, walk in the rain, sitting around at the beach... relaxing, esp just lazing around the beach when the weather is not too hot... bbq on tue was quite pathetic... had it in the porch, got the whole room filled with smoke... quite amazed at seniors' culinary skills.. but my class guys are far from that... haha.. just to get them off the bed is a difficult task... thou turnout was not too good, it's really fun.. few pple but cosy, u can call tt...
wed mami came.. we went gaigai and got some stuff for my taiwan trip... really worried for her... memory getting quite bad and not very healthy... hope she can find some meaning in life... but she's as lazy as i am...
thurs went back to ny for ct selection.. standard getting lower... skills not very good... got terribly ill since morning... and had to endure thru the 3 hour briefing... my cough was killing me.. had fever went to see doctor and came home to sleep...
fri was a sleep day.. the medicine made me very very drowsy... jus slept and slept.. got a lot better the next day... sleep is indeed very effective...
still feeling quite weak... so haf to rot at home... hope will recover before the trip... looking forward to go taiwan!!

i'm here to blog by the order of miss ho sihui.. so the story goes like this... i went to ice skate wif her this afternoon.... this is the first time we both skated since many yrs ago... and for me, it's the 2nd time in my 17 yrs of life to skate... so as expected i fell like nobody's business... at least 5 times i think.. and my butt is so wet... and my fingers were numb cos the gloves got wet too.... i think for the 2 hrs we skated.. i only managed to go round the ring like 5 times... while dearest sihui went like 20... haha.. anw the place snowed... they let down some foamy stuff like snow... thou it's quite fake.. but it's so beautiful... and sihui insisted on gg to the centre of the ring to get some of the foam on herself... so we continued skating until our legs were hurting like mad... anw in the midst of skating, i performed an impressive act.. i managed to keep my balance by squatting on the ice, cos my butt was so determined not to hit the freezing ice... oh.. and i met my cadet there... i was like gg to fall and suddenly someone skate past me and said "hello ma'am"... it was really embarassing... cos i kept falling and once right in front of her.. haha... so on the whole, this skating outing was really fun... skating is so exciting.. i bet no one will experience tt kind of leg trembling and heart thumping like me...after skating, we went to kfc and i had my dinner.. then we took the shuttle bus to imm and walked around.. we met mrs soh and her husband i think... they were choosing some lighting.. i commented tt sihui skates better than she walks.. she loses balance while walking and can't walk with her legs closer together but when she skates, she's perfectly fine... so we looked at all the furniture shops and fantasize our future homes... having all those very very nice furniture...it was abt 7.30 and we decided to go home.. then we waited for the shuttle and we purposely missed one cos it's real packed..we tok crap for like 15 mins while waiting for the bus.. and when the bus came, i went up without noticing tt poor sihui got her shoelace stuck in the holes on the seat... and we planned to go back to ny to teach while wating for our 'a's results.. tt's jus a suggestion.. haha... dun think it'll come true.... i gather tt conversations with sqdmates are really relaxing cos we dun use brains... ok... skip to the part on my mrt trip back home.. i was stoning on the mrt until it was one stop before i reached home.. then a caucasian lady sat beside me and asked"so how're u doing tonite?" i was quite surprised then i din noe how to ans so i jus say ok.. then she asked "so u're gg home?" and i said "yah"... then i reached my stop and before i got off i said bye to her... i think tt she's really very friendly... but it's a rare experience tt one wud get in singapore.. i think we shud become more friendly towards strangers... mabbe we're to shy to tok... ok.. then let's smile.. smile to someone next time u're outside.. it's nice if u receive a smile in return...

it was the worst or the second worst experience with projects.. thou i'm already at the last lap, i still feel very very tired, not a sign of relief... how i hope everything can end asap... i dun wanna touch PW again!! my frustration and agony have been bottling up and recently it has overflowed.. my poor grpmates mus haf suffered fom all my blasts... but it's all directed to one particular person actually... i carn do anything, all i can do is jus nag.. i bet i've aged like twenty yrs over this yr.. i dunno how we'll fare for this last lap.... but i still hope everything can end smoothly.. it din start well, it din go well but at least let it end well!! please...

刚做完我的专题作业。。现在是凌晨一点多。。虽然很累可是不想睡。。很想写些东西。。前段时间带了一个多月的隐形眼镜。。有人觉得我的眼睛好象要跳出来一样。。很恐怖。。隐形眼镜带得蛮舒服的，但是后来还是决定不再配多一副。。不敢带。。觉得很没有安全感。。好象赤裸裸地面对着世界。。还是比较习惯带眼镜，躲在眼镜的背后。。不知道在怕什么，只是不敢太直接地面对世界或者说我自己。。算了。。好好地带我的眼镜就好了。。想太多。。晚上总是比较喜欢胡思乱想。。去睡吧。。去睡了。。再见！

finally finished my long and torturous exams... locking myself at home for five days was really a very challenging task... but i figured that the things i did in those five days were really more meaningful and fruitful than any other normal school days.. had nice conversations with mami, xiaowei, and some imposters.. cook myself nice food... life is so simple.. wake up early,study, eat, study, eat, watch tv, sleep.. the moment my last paper ended.. i was surprisingly not excited at all... all i felt was emptiness.. as if my life is going to change again... no more-stay-at-home-all-day days... aimless.. though i was very gek during the five day break when everyone was telling me where they go play, when i had the chance to play i dun feel very happy... yesterday was really a bad bad day... paper din finish, had some project to do... then went for dinner met a weird person who told me my face is very dirty, i shud not eat fried oyster... then came home and broke a plate... everything was jus wrong.. as if all these were preempting something... today went to sing k, then walked around orchard for 3+ hrs then went to eat ajisen... singing k was really relaxing but after tt all the bad mood jus returned.. now i'm feeling extremely horrible while i type all these.. dunno why... haf to go school again tml... shall i put a paper bag over my head.. i dun wanna see anyone... very tired to need to respond to everyone and everything around... jus let me be emotionless and motionless for these few days... can i?! ARH~~~ papers are coming back on fri and the following week... dun really expect good results... but pls let me promote.. i dun wanna to worry i dun wana think abt anything... my brain cells need time to regenerate.. pls forgive me anyone who has read till this point.. i shudn't pass all these negative emotions to u... but i need to let all these things out... ok when i end this entry i shall jus go to sleep and tomorrow WILL be a better day!! hope... nitez...

everything's finally over.... did ok for both geyao and SA comp... at least din make very big mistakes that i'll regret for life... and throughout the SA comp made many new interesting friends.. and oso got to see a lot of famous pple like Junyang.... haha... dun jealous... really an enriching experience...hope there will be more opportunities like this in the future...
so now... life's back to normal... haf to start mugging... promos coming soon... ARH~~~ anw jus hope can do better for promos...
haf been practising the 'be happy' trick... have been quite useful.... hope it'll become a habit soon...
OK... shall get back to work.... everyone let's mug together!!!

刚上了苏老师的课，有很多想法。。。有很多事情我们真的应该学会放开，人活着最重要是开心。。。每天早上要对着镜子，看看真正的自己，告诉自己今天要开心。。。天天这样做。。。让开心变得像呼吸一样平常。。。做让自己开心，让别人开心的事。。。不要变成那种走过连草都会被毒死的人。。。人要懂得自我催眠，像老师说的，人只是一团细胞但他有强大的意志力，只要自己想要做一定可以的。。。经过挫折后才能真正散发出自己的光辉。。。也无风雨，也无晴。。。对每件事都要以平常心对待，不要总是想着经历过的煎熬，也不要对眼前的光芒抱有太大的希望。。。隧道的尽头有光芒，但那可能是迎面而来的火车。。。事情的变与不变要看我们从哪一个角度观察来决定。。。不要怕死就不会怕生，人有死的勇气就应该有活的勇气。。。珍惜生命吧，朋友。。。我在想，人会怕死可能是因为生活给他们留下太多放不下的东西，人与人之间所培养出的各种感情。。。现在的我们什么都得从书上学习，生命是用来体会的，多看电视吧。。。你有为了电视节目哭过吗？人情。。。
那么多的想法，在面对生活的时候可能用不上。。。但至少有这些想法代表没有盲目地过生活。。。

had a lot of fun on sunday.... went to sentosa wif classmates... and seniors... thou there was a little argument in the middle but it was ok after a while... we swam and played ball in the sea... everyone kept teasing the scandalous pair in class... then went to cine for dinner... celebrated bdae for shijun... but the pasta was not nice... and din get to eat the bdae cake... anw everyone was burnt...
went for a movie after celebration on mon... went to watch charlie and the choc factory... the scenes were very nice... a lot of colours... but the story was a bit morbid... on the whole the movie is still very nice..
yesterday was National Day... brought a group of china students to PS to shop then went to jurong east to watch the fireworks... fireworks was very nice.... esp the part where it looked like waterfountain... then shell, chere and her no. 1 went to have an uncle ringo ride... they look so farni... the biggest among little kids... thou the day was tiring but still fun lah... hope our hosting wasn't too bad...
geyao this saturday... very worried... hope everything goes well... and hope wun get scolded again...

Friday was a bad day... sang horribly during announcement.. even got comments tt i was acting cute... in the afternoon went to SA for rehearsal... got commented tt my movements on stage are very weird and ugly... then rushed back for geyao rehearsal after tt... tt was the worse part of the day... got scolded twice by the PA staff.. first time for interrupting his conversation wif fengyi... second was when i tapped the mike... then it came the worst moment... i was on stage to test out the sound system.. then the music played... i din noe how to sing wif the music cos it was the first time hear the arrangement... i was feeling very helpless... the stage light was so glaring i carn see anyone in the audience and i couldn't follow the music... so i said "fengyi i dunno how to follow the music" and got off the stage.... very disappointed... then got comments tt my costume blended into the background... everyone was wearing very glamourously except me...i realised my confidence level has been going lower and lower..... this cannot continue... pls somebody help me bring back my confidence before the 2 competitions.... pls somebody help!!
anw to my fellow lep council peeps and all who helped out at the event.... good job... the event was successful... and thanks to all the actors and actresses for the skit... u all were great!!!

went for briefing for the SA comp yesterday... we got to tok to the judge... then he said he chose my song cos it's happier diff from the other songs... then he said i haf to improve on my singing and then he made a comment: "cannot change singer already rite?" yah... he said tt... mabbe it was jus a slip of the tongue but i think it's from the bottom of his heart.... sad... so actually i carn sing... since even professional say i dun sing well then i really dun sing well.... recently friends haf been saying tt i sing quite nicely, causing me to have the illusion tt i can sing... the comment was quite a "da3 ji1" for me... pple, pls dun say i sing nice anymore....

how long haven i been updating? the blog looks abandoned... anw let me update on wad happened these few weeks... shall not tok abt sad stuff like block tests... i've got good news... got into finals of geyao and sajc song composition comp.... last saturday went for geyao prelims... so nervous lah... never practised the song with accompaniment before.... but luckily managed to pull it off... after geyao prelims went to zpop in the evening...
was very tired after geyao... initially din wanna go zpop but at home oso rot so decided to go... nobody wud wanna see wad i wore tt evening... like an auntie loh... cos i was really sian... but zpop was really nice... hear quite a few very nice songs... like the jin sha, fan weiqi, ah sang, tanya... they all sing life very nice... anw since the place was very dark i sang and screamed like nobody's business.... anw i onli managed to hear voices considering my height.... was quite surprised to see ser chuan there too... din noe he so on one... haha... me and wang jing left after jj sang... we wanted to go PS to eat shilin ji pai but was too late onli had mee sua left... din like the mee sua so was still very hungry so dear wj was very nice to offer to treat me ice cream.... so we just sat at PS and ate our ice cream... really enjoy this kind of slack moments... then we went home after the ice cream treat...
had half day school on tue... but effectively onli 2 periods of lessons cos i had 3 period break...then went kbox wif wj, vaneh and yunling... had a nice time singing.. hope vaneh had a great time too since she's leaving for italy in sept....
this afternoon met joelyn in the canteen.... had lunch wif her... as usual we tok... then realised haven seen squadmates for a long long time.... had been missing squad outings.... hope to see squadmates real soon...

haven't been updating for a while... did really badly for blocks... already got 2 'o's... have been telling a lot of my friends abt this... i'm not really sad cos i really din study well... jus feel bad so hope to get some encouragement and motivation from my friends... anw i have to work really hard from now on so tt i dun get retained....
anw jus read a very nice quote:"stay hungry. stay foolish." There is no explanation for it but i guess it's sth like this... when u stay hungry then u'll be able to appreciate how nice food is, when u stay foolish u jus live life as it is , dun regret any decisions u have made for urself... u may end up wif sth good becos of tt decision but u may onli see it many years later.... "live every day of ur life like it is the last..."

刚读了我一位华文老师的网上日记，突然很想用华文写...她的日记很好看，里面有写一些她不爽的事情，超酷的！
今天在巴士上和婧谈了一些事情，突然讲到小S要结婚了，我还一直以为她才二十一，二岁，然后婧说她妈妈说我们都长大了，别人也到了要结婚的年龄。这让我忽然发现我有一种很奇怪的想法，我以为世界还停留在很多年前，没有发现自己长大了...还是我选择了让时间停留在那个时候，因为日子是快乐的...人总是喜欢在某些时候或对某些事情选择性地失忆,但我想我总是把每件事都记住,是不是多余的，我应该学会放下...我需要时间想，但日子实在很烦，懒得想...能白目地过日子也是一种幸福吧！

block test's over... finally... really disappointed wif my own performance... but serve me right lah... din prepare well... haiz... end of one nightmare beginning of another.... anw after hols, suddenly dread school a lot... my mood is always on a negative gradient... very tired now.... i bet millions of brain cells died...
shall share a lame joke here... once there was this old man who sells hats.. then one day he was sitting under a tree then a monkey took his hat... he remembered monkeys liked to imitate so he clapped his hands then the monkeys followed... then he swayed his hands the monkeys oso followed... then he pretend to take off sth from his head then the monkey took the hat off and dropped it... so the old man got his hat back... then the old man went home and told his grandchildren abt this... many years later, one of his grandchild oso sold hats and he too came to this tree and a monkey took his hat away too... then he did wad his grandpa told him... but when he pretend to take off sth from his head, the monkey stuck its tongue out at the grandchild.... then he felt very puzzled and said," but my grandpa said u will drop the hat..." then the monkey replied, " do u think u r the onli one who has grandpa?!"
Got it?

hey peeps!! i'm finally back... spend 1 whole week with a bunch of aunties and uncles... average age gap: 30+ to 60+... so amazing rite... first time i really understand wad pple call generation gap... nvm... tt's not the main pt... let's tok abt the trip...
first day went back to indonesia... next day took a ferry to kukup, a place in johor, then got driven to pontian, another place in johor... slept over there for one nite and left for Senai airport in the morning... took a plane to kuching, a place in sarawak, then took another plane to miri, another place in sarawak... at miri we had two nites of 8 course dinner consecutively... had really bad indigestion... then went to brunei for a day tour... then came back to tour miri the next day... and for the rest of the one and a half day left... i spent my time in the hotel room studying physics while my mum go shopping... spent 7 days like tt...
it was an even more tiring trip back.. took plane to kuching then to senai... then took a cab to a bus interchange and took a bus to johor custom... then took another bus to cross the causeway then took a bus to get out of the singapore custom... then took a taxi back home... spent 3/4 of the whole holiday traveling...
miri is a nice place lah... slow pace... but not much things to see... but i saw ye4 jun4 cen2, an ex mediacorp actor in my hotel... ok u all might not noe him... nvm... oso i say miri is a nice place becos i went to brunei... i tell u... it's like an enlarged version of bukit timah... everywhere is filled with bungalows and trees... u cannot see a single motorcycle or bicycle around cos everyone there has cars, not 1 but 3,4 cars... cos the instalment is like $36 a month... and as we drove along the road, we saw no human being around, only buildings and trees... very huang1 liang2.. so we spent one day sightseeing, but really saw not much interesing stuff... my trip sounds boring rite... yes cos it's really boring!!! the only thing i like abt the trip is the sarawak pineapple... so sweet loh... it's the sweetest and juiciest pineapple i've ever eaten in my 17 years of life!!!
so my conclusion: want to have a nice holiday, go wif ur family and friends onli, and dun go to the main cities, go places more exotic, may haf more adventures... ok shall hope tt my next trip anywhere will be better... and wish myself and everyone taking mid-years good luck!!!

very excited over my blog... now i understand why everyone's getting themselves a blog... it's not really about the entries by the bloggers but the tags pple put up... so happy to see pple tagging already!! hey everyone, continue to tag ok!!
anw yesterday tried to cook myself a new dish... hmm... i mixed chopped up vegetable with chopped up luncheon meat and egg together... then fried it... i was worried the veg was not cooked enuff so decided to leave the thing frying for like ages... in the end guess wad happen? my egg was burnt but the veg was still not cooked!! anw since i cooked it so i haf to eat it... and i ate it... haven tried bitter egg before... come look for me... i wun gif up... shall continue cooking up new dishes... await my new inventions.... haha... lesson learnt: fry ur ingredients, make sure they're cooked before pouring in the egg...

My first entry!!

hi to anyone visting my blog... i was reading my friends' blogs then realised pple haven been updating... felt quite sian so started a blog myself... feeling real bored recently... trying to get myself to start revision but not very successful... anw i'll be gg to brunei for err.... holiday.... weird place i noe... but hope will have a nice time wif my parents... carn think of anything else to say so shall end here...