30.7.05

went for briefing for the SA comp yesterday... we got to tok to the judge... then he said he chose my song cos it's happier diff from the other songs... then he said i haf to improve on my singing and then he made a comment: "cannot change singer already rite?" yah... he said tt... mabbe it was jus a slip of the tongue but i think it's from the bottom of his heart.... sad... so actually i carn sing... since even professional say i dun sing well then i really dun sing well.... recently friends haf been saying tt i sing quite nicely, causing me to have the illusion tt i can sing... the comment was quite a "da3 ji1" for me... pple, pls dun say i sing nice anymore....

28.7.05

how long haven i been updating? the blog looks abandoned... anw let me update on wad happened these few weeks... shall not tok abt sad stuff like block tests... i've got good news... got into finals of geyao and sajc song composition comp.... last saturday went for geyao prelims... so nervous lah... never practised the song with accompaniment before.... but luckily managed to pull it off... after geyao prelims went to zpop in the evening...
was very tired after geyao... initially din wanna go zpop but at home oso rot so decided to go... nobody wud wanna see wad i wore tt evening... like an auntie loh... cos i was really sian... but zpop was really nice... hear quite a few very nice songs... like the jin sha, fan weiqi, ah sang, tanya... they all sing life very nice... anw since the place was very dark i sang and screamed like nobody's business.... anw i onli managed to hear voices considering my height.... was quite surprised to see ser chuan there too... din noe he so on one... haha... me and wang jing left after jj sang... we wanted to go PS to eat shilin ji pai but was too late onli had mee sua left... din like the mee sua so was still very hungry so dear wj was very nice to offer to treat me ice cream.... so we just sat at PS and ate our ice cream... really enjoy this kind of slack moments... then we went home after the ice cream treat...
had half day school on tue... but effectively onli 2 periods of lessons cos i had 3 period break...then went kbox wif wj, vaneh and yunling... had a nice time singing.. hope vaneh had a great time too since she's leaving for italy in sept....
this afternoon met joelyn in the canteen.... had lunch wif her... as usual we tok... then realised haven seen squadmates for a long long time.... had been missing squad outings.... hope to see squadmates real soon...

8.7.05

haven't been updating for a while... did really badly for blocks... already got 2 'o's... have been telling a lot of my friends abt this... i'm not really sad cos i really din study well... jus feel bad so hope to get some encouragement and motivation from my friends... anw i have to work really hard from now on so tt i dun get retained....
anw jus read a very nice quote:"stay hungry. stay foolish." There is no explanation for it but i guess it's sth like this... when u stay hungry then u'll be able to appreciate how nice food is, when u stay foolish u jus live life as it is , dun regret any decisions u have made for urself... u may end up wif sth good becos of tt decision but u may onli see it many years later.... "live every day of ur life like it is the last..."

1.7.05

刚读了我一位华文老师的网上日记,突然很想用华文写...她的日记很好看,里面有写一些她不爽的事情,超酷的!
今天在巴士上和婧谈了一些事情,突然讲到小S要结婚了,我还一直以为她才二十一,二岁,然后婧说她妈妈说我们都长大了,别人也到了要结婚的年龄。这让我忽然发现我有一种很奇怪的想法,我以为世界还停留在很多年前,没有发现自己长大了...还是我选择了让时间停留在那个时候,因为日子是快乐的...人总是喜欢在某些时候或对某些事情选择性地失忆,但我想我总是把每件事都记住,是不是多余的,我应该学会放下...我需要时间想,但日子实在很烦,懒得想...能白目地过日子也是一种幸福吧!
block test's over... finally... really disappointed wif my own performance... but serve me right lah... din prepare well... haiz... end of one nightmare beginning of another.... anw after hols, suddenly dread school a lot... my mood is always on a negative gradient... very tired now.... i bet millions of brain cells died...
shall share a lame joke here... once there was this old man who sells hats.. then one day he was sitting under a tree then a monkey took his hat... he remembered monkeys liked to imitate so he clapped his hands then the monkeys followed... then he swayed his hands the monkeys oso followed... then he pretend to take off sth from his head then the monkey took the hat off and dropped it... so the old man got his hat back... then the old man went home and told his grandchildren abt this... many years later, one of his grandchild oso sold hats and he too came to this tree and a monkey took his hat away too... then he did wad his grandpa told him... but when he pretend to take off sth from his head, the monkey stuck its tongue out at the grandchild.... then he felt very puzzled and said," but my grandpa said u will drop the hat..." then the monkey replied, " do u think u r the onli one who has grandpa?!"
Got it?