i'm here to blog by the order of miss ho sihui.. so the story goes like this... i went to ice skate wif her this afternoon.... this is the first time we both skated since many yrs ago... and for me, it's the 2nd time in my 17 yrs of life to skate... so as expected i fell like nobody's business... at least 5 times i think.. and my butt is so wet... and my fingers were numb cos the gloves got wet too.... i think for the 2 hrs we skated.. i only managed to go round the ring like 5 times... while dearest sihui went like 20... haha.. anw the place snowed... they let down some foamy stuff like snow... thou it's quite fake.. but it's so beautiful... and sihui insisted on gg to the centre of the ring to get some of the foam on herself... so we continued skating until our legs were hurting like mad... anw in the midst of skating, i performed an impressive act.. i managed to keep my balance by squatting on the ice, cos my butt was so determined not to hit the freezing ice... oh.. and i met my cadet there... i was like gg to fall and suddenly someone skate past me and said "hello ma'am"... it was really embarassing... cos i kept falling and once right in front of her.. haha... so on the whole, this skating outing was really fun... skating is so exciting.. i bet no one will experience tt kind of leg trembling and heart thumping like me...after skating, we went to kfc and i had my dinner.. then we took the shuttle bus to imm and walked around.. we met mrs soh and her husband i think... they were choosing some lighting.. i commented tt sihui skates better than she walks.. she loses balance while walking and can't walk with her legs closer together but when she skates, she's perfectly fine... so we looked at all the furniture shops and fantasize our future homes... having all those very very nice furniture...it was abt 7.30 and we decided to go home.. then we waited for the shuttle and we purposely missed one cos it's real packed..we tok crap for like 15 mins while waiting for the bus.. and when the bus came, i went up without noticing tt poor sihui got her shoelace stuck in the holes on the seat... and we planned to go back to ny to teach while wating for our 'a's results.. tt's jus a suggestion.. haha... dun think it'll come true.... i gather tt conversations with sqdmates are really relaxing cos we dun use brains... ok... skip to the part on my mrt trip back home.. i was stoning on the mrt until it was one stop before i reached home.. then a caucasian lady sat beside me and asked"so how're u doing tonite?" i was quite surprised then i din noe how to ans so i jus say ok.. then she asked "so u're gg home?" and i said "yah"... then i reached my stop and before i got off i said bye to her... i think tt she's really very friendly... but it's a rare experience tt one wud get in singapore.. i think we shud become more friendly towards strangers... mabbe we're to shy to tok... ok.. then let's smile.. smile to someone next time u're outside.. it's nice if u receive a smile in return...

it was the worst or the second worst experience with projects.. thou i'm already at the last lap, i still feel very very tired, not a sign of relief... how i hope everything can end asap... i dun wanna touch PW again!! my frustration and agony have been bottling up and recently it has overflowed.. my poor grpmates mus haf suffered fom all my blasts... but it's all directed to one particular person actually... i carn do anything, all i can do is jus nag.. i bet i've aged like twenty yrs over this yr.. i dunno how we'll fare for this last lap.... but i still hope everything can end smoothly.. it din start well, it din go well but at least let it end well!! please...

刚做完我的专题作业。。现在是凌晨一点多。。虽然很累可是不想睡。。很想写些东西。。前段时间带了一个多月的隐形眼镜。。有人觉得我的眼睛好象要跳出来一样。。很恐怖。。隐形眼镜带得蛮舒服的，但是后来还是决定不再配多一副。。不敢带。。觉得很没有安全感。。好象赤裸裸地面对着世界。。还是比较习惯带眼镜，躲在眼镜的背后。。不知道在怕什么，只是不敢太直接地面对世界或者说我自己。。算了。。好好地带我的眼镜就好了。。想太多。。晚上总是比较喜欢胡思乱想。。去睡吧。。去睡了。。再见！

finally finished my long and torturous exams... locking myself at home for five days was really a very challenging task... but i figured that the things i did in those five days were really more meaningful and fruitful than any other normal school days.. had nice conversations with mami, xiaowei, and some imposters.. cook myself nice food... life is so simple.. wake up early,study, eat, study, eat, watch tv, sleep.. the moment my last paper ended.. i was surprisingly not excited at all... all i felt was emptiness.. as if my life is going to change again... no more-stay-at-home-all-day days... aimless.. though i was very gek during the five day break when everyone was telling me where they go play, when i had the chance to play i dun feel very happy... yesterday was really a bad bad day... paper din finish, had some project to do... then went for dinner met a weird person who told me my face is very dirty, i shud not eat fried oyster... then came home and broke a plate... everything was jus wrong.. as if all these were preempting something... today went to sing k, then walked around orchard for 3+ hrs then went to eat ajisen... singing k was really relaxing but after tt all the bad mood jus returned.. now i'm feeling extremely horrible while i type all these.. dunno why... haf to go school again tml... shall i put a paper bag over my head.. i dun wanna see anyone... very tired to need to respond to everyone and everything around... jus let me be emotionless and motionless for these few days... can i?! ARH~~~ papers are coming back on fri and the following week... dun really expect good results... but pls let me promote.. i dun wanna to worry i dun wana think abt anything... my brain cells need time to regenerate.. pls forgive me anyone who has read till this point.. i shudn't pass all these negative emotions to u... but i need to let all these things out... ok when i end this entry i shall jus go to sleep and tomorrow WILL be a better day!! hope... nitez...