have been very slack.. went for 2 k sessions and did little work... results quite bad but starting to mug liao.. seriously...
anw have been having weird feelings tt i have never felt so strongly before... very bothered by these feelings.. but luckily found a nice sms pal to crap to..realise we really click so well... as i say it's like xiang feng hen wan... haha... back to those weird feelings... never experienced before so dunno wad they're leading me too... it either ends well or fades off.. i just hope it stops distracting me... i wanna tok sense and focus.. ARH!! but i think my pal there is experiencing tt too.. sharing my woes..
i dunno if it's becos of it tt i start to love karen mok's songs.. ni gei wo duo shao shi jian~~

today was a very fun day! finally had outing with weiying and wanqi.. screaming our hearts out in kster.. it started as a joke at the busstop and we got wanqi who was on the bus home to make her way back... haha.. and i spent 1 hour standing at the busstop looking at 4 157s pass... singing songs like kang ding qing ge and wo zhi zai hu ni... so retro.. though i was constantly irritated by weiying, it was just sth i have to get used to.. as wanqi says dun hiu her... haha.. as it was an impromptu idea we were rather lack of cash.. so weiying suggested waiting for friends whom we can borrow some money from at the bus stop... and she managed to borrow 10 dollars... besides the singing and the several times of hanging of the system... we also got some tips at acting cute by the "keaijiaozhu" imposter, lee jia liu liu di da jie... no.1: add ren2 jia1 before every sentence, no. 2: personify everything... like when u drop bread on the floor say this, i think the bread is tong4 tong4...tt's the more basic stuff.. want more tips, look for her... anw i think it's really fun hanging out with these 2 crazy gals.. hope our next outing will be coming soon...

just went to do some astrology tests cos i'm really drained after afternoon's paper... the readings say tt i need a lot of emotional security which i agree completely... these 2 years i've been gg back more frequently and i realised i seem to have become closer to my mum... which i feel very glad abt... i feel very safe and protected when i'm with her... mabbe it's cos i've always been floating emotionally.. there's no place i can land safely.. now tt i really feel the bond building up, i feel comforted.. pple who grew up with their family wun understand this kind of feeling where u have to try consciously to build bonds... it's tiring.. like this hols when i feel the closeness it only lasted the week and i have to come back here... i'm afraid the force of attraction will weaken and the next time i see her i'll have to try to patch it up again... mabbe the feeling of closeness is making me feel too safe or just the exams are making me too stressed up, i was reluctant to come back and i feel like gg back now... i want to relive my childhood which i've missed too much... i cry too easily because the tears are overflowing inside... i dun like to but i can't stop.. nobody offers a pat because i keep pple away... tired..