刚做完我的专题作业。。现在是凌晨一点多。。虽然很累可是不想睡。。很想写些东西。。前段时间带了一个多月的隐形眼镜。。有人觉得我的眼睛好象要跳出来一样。。很恐怖。。隐形眼镜带得蛮舒服的，但是后来还是决定不再配多一副。。不敢带。。觉得很没有安全感。。好象赤裸裸地面对着世界。。还是比较习惯带眼镜，躲在眼镜的背后。。不知道在怕什么，只是不敢太直接地面对世界或者说我自己。。算了。。好好地带我的眼镜就好了。。想太多。。晚上总是比较喜欢胡思乱想。。去睡吧。。去睡了。。再见！

finally finished my long and torturous exams... locking myself at home for five days was really a very challenging task... but i figured that the things i did in those five days were really more meaningful and fruitful than any other normal school days.. had nice conversations with mami, xiaowei, and some imposters.. cook myself nice food... life is so simple.. wake up early,study, eat, study, eat, watch tv, sleep.. the moment my last paper ended.. i was surprisingly not excited at all... all i felt was emptiness.. as if my life is going to change again... no more-stay-at-home-all-day days... aimless.. though i was very gek during the five day break when everyone was telling me where they go play, when i had the chance to play i dun feel very happy... yesterday was really a bad bad day... paper din finish, had some project to do... then went for dinner met a weird person who told me my face is very dirty, i shud not eat fried oyster... then came home and broke a plate... everything was jus wrong.. as if all these were preempting something... today went to sing k, then walked around orchard for 3+ hrs then went to eat ajisen... singing k was really relaxing but after tt all the bad mood jus returned.. now i'm feeling extremely horrible while i type all these.. dunno why... haf to go school again tml... shall i put a paper bag over my head.. i dun wanna see anyone... very tired to need to respond to everyone and everything around... jus let me be emotionless and motionless for these few days... can i?! ARH~~~ papers are coming back on fri and the following week... dun really expect good results... but pls let me promote.. i dun wanna to worry i dun wana think abt anything... my brain cells need time to regenerate.. pls forgive me anyone who has read till this point.. i shudn't pass all these negative emotions to u... but i need to let all these things out... ok when i end this entry i shall jus go to sleep and tomorrow WILL be a better day!! hope... nitez...

everything's finally over.... did ok for both geyao and SA comp... at least din make very big mistakes that i'll regret for life... and throughout the SA comp made many new interesting friends.. and oso got to see a lot of famous pple like Junyang.... haha... dun jealous... really an enriching experience...hope there will be more opportunities like this in the future...
so now... life's back to normal... haf to start mugging... promos coming soon... ARH~~~ anw jus hope can do better for promos...
haf been practising the 'be happy' trick... have been quite useful.... hope it'll become a habit soon...
OK... shall get back to work.... everyone let's mug together!!!