coming to an end very soon... shall post some pics to mark this very treacherous and fruitful journey...































i wouldn't say i regret the fun i had but would have been better if i see the light earlier...
really experienced and learnt a lot, hall, school, internships....
i don't really wanna do it again but these will become great memories!
i just really wanna thank all the teachers and friends and my mum for seeing me through all these years...

yay! beginning of another phase! looking forward! cross my fingers~

最近的种种天灾让我一直在思考自己的人生。确实眼前的事是重要的，无聊到为搞砸的作业哭。。但是想到如果下一刻就结束，其实有很多还想做的事。。。有很多想感受的心情。。感情用事，但没有情感的世界会很无趣！听到让我落泪的歌，让我羡慕的关系，让我向往的生活，可是看起来都遥不可及。。我现在只可以脚踏实地地做我该做的事，期盼着希望还很长远的未来。加油吧！只有自己能让自己前进！

i love my friends... it's always a comfort to have pple u're so comfortable with, u just become totally nonsensical... maybe tt's the true me... please show me more love my dear friends!!! i'm greedy but i need all of ur support especially when i'm gg to face things i have no idea of...

love,
chai

wanted to do everything, so took up everything.... keep myself busy so i wun lose momentum! but pls dun procrastinate, dun procrastinate, dun procrastinate!! if i dun move, i'll get buried under piles of work!! i need to motivate myself, push push push eeaaaahhhhhh~~~~
我和牛顿的共鸣：inertia

it's really refreshing to go off on a trip once in a while~ meeting different pple leading exciting lives in different parts of the world, helps u see things differently.. pple need changes in life, not tt life now is not good but changes bring excitement~ not being overly disciplined but i believe in having your own principles and know your limits!! dun feel pressurized to do things u're not comfortable with!
cool trip, nice company, beautiful scenery! great getaway~

work

i think i'm really des.... people are complicated especially when everyone has their own interests to take care of... i really shouldn't say too much, jus listen. people dun need to know too much about me, it's ok, just be friends who can have fun together.

an especially early quarter life crisis!
everybody says i'm thinking too much but seriously i am jus planning ahead..
apparently i can't cos nothing seems to be coming in correctly...
i'm so sorry to my mum who always has to listen to my complaints and cannot really help me much but try to comfort me.
i jus need to clear my congested mind once in a while. i cannot keep a rubbish bin in myself.
am i pushing myself too much? feel so tired but i don't want to give up!!!
tt's even more tiring...
i really admire pple who can wait for things to happen and handle them as they come...
i'm too impatient for my own good!

Your result for The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test ...
7 - the Adventurer
Thanks for taking the test !
you chose AX - your Enneagram type is SEVEN (aka "The Enthusiast").
"I am happy and open to new things"
Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute to the world.

How to Get Along with Me

Give me companionship, affection, and freedom.
Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter.
Appreciate my grand visions and listen to my stories.
Don't try to change my style. Accept me the way I am.
Be responsible for youself. I dislike clingy or needy people.
Don't tell me what to do.

What I Like About Being a SEVEN

being optimistic and not letting life's troubles get me down
being spontaneous and free-spirited
being outspoken and outrageous. It's part of the fun.
being generous and trying to make the world a better place
having the guts to take risks and to try exciting adventures
having such varied interests and abilities

What's Hard About Being a SEVEN

not having enough time to do all the things I want
not completing things I start
not being able to profit from the benefits that come from specializing; not making a commitment to a career
having a tendency to be ungrounded; getting lost in plans or fantasies
feeling confined when I'm in a one-to-one relationship

SEVENs as Children Often

are action oriented and adventuresome
drum up excitement
prefer being with other children to being alone
finesse their way around adults
dream of the freedom they'll have when they grow up

SEVENs as Parents

are often enthusiastic and generous
want their children to be exposed to many adventures in life
may be too busy with their own activities to be attentive

results taken from:http://www.okcupid.com/results/the-quick-painless-enneagram-test/?fromCGI=1&var_ABC=78&var_XYZ=27

it's been a long time since i had so much fun~ it's all abt nice companions to a trip of no stress and unfamiliar places! we need beautiful things to keep our eyes and minds occupied.. the beautiful flowers in spring are especially stunning and breath taking after 3 months of winter~ i never knew i loved water this much till i see those seas and falls and rivers and lakes..
thanks for all ur wonderful company! crazy moments, enduring my silly stunts, exciting card sessions, tiao xi game and all those good food and nice people... everything jus falls into place nicely! it's a closeness i've never felt in a long time, it's an openness i haven't let myself into in a long time, it's a great deal of comfort i haven't immersed myself in a long time!
it's such a pity everything ends and we end up in different places.. let's hope we meet again and go for a trip again someday! my well wishes to all of u out there~ we'll meet again!!

看到阿桑走了的消息非常的震惊，以为他只是很久没出片了，没想到是生病了。最近听到太多令人难过的事情，大家一个个的都生病，甚至离开我们。真是无常啊！人生！
虽然非亲非故，但可能最近听到太多这类的消息，不免心中难过。留下来的大家虽然还是要过日子，但是就是少了一个人。
交流就快结束了，就要离开这寒冷的国度。ju问我准备好了吗，我不明白他的意思。是心情上准备好离开了吗。我说我比较想念新加坡，大概是哪里的大家让我比较温暖，也可能是那里的天气。但是在这里还是遇到了很好玩的朋友们。以后去香港找你们！
每个人的时间那么有限，要尽力用来装满开心精彩的事情。要在现实和快乐之间取得平衡。说得容易。。
还是要读书考试的，之后再好好的寻找精彩吧！--彩色的灵魂！！

emerge08~~

xinyao ext concert~~

pj's bday outing!! april fool's day!

blk supper~ pizza/sushi/kfc/macs

不想去争些什么。很累的。
做了一百件好事，只需要一件错事就够了。
不是故意的，我也顾不了那么多。
身体很疲倦，所以做事没劲。
也不知道自己在忙什么，就觉得时间过得太快了啦！
觉得我做事不认真吗，不是吧,
我在做都没人在看。
不说出来会憋死啊！
我是不吐不快的人，
可是没力去辩。
随便，不要想了。
肚子饿。
不要找我麻烦就好了。

为什么总是在别人的后面？！看不到吗？不够好。

updates requested by granny... museum outing with yanyun, jolene, hera. beautiful statues from the louvre. raffles hotel gallery. chicken rice at bugis (not from the food court in the pic thou). spent the entire day together, walking, crapping and looking at things.. a random outing with my arty-farty friends but it's fun..
new year eve's countdown at shijun's place... probably the best turnout rate for class outing.. haha.. had lots of great food, watched tv and had lots of fun (amazingly) playing taboo with them. miss the randomness and lameness of these pple, jus so funny...
a short trip to jakarta. first time there. stayed at relative's place.. a very happy and nice family with the 2 sisters and the sister-in-law in the pic. travelling is a hassle, hours stuck in traffic jams and floods on the roads. lots of shopping and jus spending time with everyone... memorable trip.

it's amazing how i started to discover that i like singing and actually dared to perform. still rmb the first time to k was with squaddies probably in sec2 or 3. dun even dare to sing into the mic and was disgusted at hearing my own voice from the speakers.

first time actually performing i really forgot. but it's in jc i rmb.

love to sing is a very misleading idea,

i love to sing and i think i should just sing in the box or sing in my little bathroom with excellent echoing effects.

performing is a pressure.

always cranking up before performances,

shud have done better is what i always thought

but was it already my best.

thinking too highly of myself.

shall not compare and shall not stress myself out.

really miss the way i sing in my little bathroom,

immersed and enjoying my voice from the echoes.

dun dare to sing here, dun wanna scare pple.

wadeva.

jus sing like how u want to,

shall learn to appreciate,

look less to others, look more into the soul.

色。戒
我只能说太强了。情绪，气氛浓到了极点。每个眼神都在说故事的演员，让我忘了他们在演戏。

Mid Autumn celebration with my blk girls!! haven't been playing with lanterns, sparklers and candles for such a long time.. reliving childhood..

jus wanna post abt some random mood swings... still trying to get use to uni life.. too much new stuff to take on.. suppressed feelings, strangers... maybe i could've done better but i couldn't cope... disappointed maybe... random floods.. rainy season perhaps.. hope things get better.. i'm treating myself badly... horrible me.. i luv my friends. i luv mami.
random photos....

had been doing hall stuff for the past few weeks.. abt hall.. i think i've put myself into a very interesting environment... meet very diff pple that i've not encountered before.. as in the way they interact with others.. but anw nice and friendly pple...

had loads of fun during orientation and rag.. back to busy days when pple work for a common goal..

my mum kept reminding me not to forget my old buddies... of course i wun.. dearest squaddies hope we'll still meet for steamboat again thou we peeps are gg diff ways..

it's jus the beginning.. let's hope there'll be more fun in the days ahead..

pre-sch blues

i'm getting serious pre-sch blues... my mum says i'm always like tt when i go to a new sch.. i think so... but i'm seriously feeling quite bad... so anxious abt dunno wad but jus anxious.. dun feel like gg for anything.. so scared... ah~~~ i hope everything jus come to me smoothly... please.....

lucky star

what a lucky day.. went to khalil's auto session.. nice live performance.. only saw his hair throughout cos was at the 2nd storey... din expect to get his auto but happens tt the queue was moving very quickly so managed to get an auto in the end... wanted to tell him he sings very well but couldn't even utter a word.. so just smiled and say thank you... but was already very happy to receive a 腼腆 smile from him.. haha.. everything seems to be in the right way! hope he'll be back for more promotion soon!!