Me and my fantasies

2011-04-24T16:56:00.005+08:00

coming to an end very soon... shall post some pics to mark this very treacherous and fruitful journey...

i wouldn't say i regret the fun i had but would have been better if i see the light earlier...
really experienced and learnt a lot, hall, school, internships....
i don't really wanna do it again but these will become great memories!
i just really wanna thank all the teachers and friends and my mum for seeing me through all these years...

yay! beginning of another phase! looking forward! cross my fingers~

2011-03-18T16:13:00.002+08:00

最近的种种天灾让我一直在思考自己的人生。确实眼前的事是重要的，无聊到为搞砸的作业哭。。但是想到如果下一刻就结束，其实有很多还想做的事。。。有很多想感受的心情。。感情用事，但没有情感的世界会很无趣！听到让我落泪的歌，让我羡慕的关系，让我向往的生活，可是看起来都遥不可及。。我现在只可以脚踏实地地做我该做的事，期盼着希望还很长远的未来。加油吧！只有自己能让自己前进！

2010-09-23T11:30:00.002+08:00

i love my friends... it's always a comfort to have pple u're so comfortable with, u just become totally nonsensical... maybe tt's the true me... please show me more love my dear friends!!! i'm greedy but i need all of ur support especially when i'm gg to face things i have no idea of...

love,
chai

2010-08-28T12:46:00.002+08:00

wanted to do everything, so took up everything.... keep myself busy so i wun lose momentum! but pls dun procrastinate, dun procrastinate, dun procrastinate!! if i dun move, i'll get buried under piles of work!! i need to motivate myself, push push push eeaaaahhhhhh~~~~
我和牛顿的共鸣：inertia

2010-08-05T13:54:00.005+08:00

it's really refreshing to go off on a trip once in a while~ meeting different pple leading exciting lives in different parts of the world, helps u see things differently.. pple need changes in life, not tt life now is not good but changes bring excitement~ not being overly disciplined but i believe in having your own principles and know your limits!! dun feel pressurized to do things u're not comfortable with!
cool trip, nice company, beautiful scenery! great getaway~

work

2010-06-02T13:16:00.002+08:00

i think i'm really des.... people are complicated especially when everyone has their own interests to take care of... i really shouldn't say too much, jus listen. people dun need to know too much about me, it's ok, just be friends who can have fun together.

2010-04-22T20:28:00.002+08:00

an especially early quarter life crisis!
everybody says i'm thinking too much but seriously i am jus planning ahead..
apparently i can't cos nothing seems to be coming in correctly...
i'm so sorry to my mum who always has to listen to my complaints and cannot really help me much but try to comfort me.
i jus need to clear my congested mind once in a while. i cannot keep a rubbish bin in myself.
am i pushing myself too much? feel so tired but i don't want to give up!!!
tt's even more tiring...
i really admire pple who can wait for things to happen and handle them as they come...
i'm too impatient for my own good!

2009-06-23T19:14:00.001+08:00

Your result for The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test ...
7 - the Adventurer
Thanks for taking the test !
you chose AX - your Enneagram type is SEVEN (aka "The Enthusiast").
"I am happy and open to new things"
Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute to the world.

How to Get Along with Me

Give me companionship, affection, and freedom.
Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter.
Appreciate my grand visions and listen to my stories.
Don't try to change my style. Accept me the way I am.
Be responsible for youself. I dislike clingy or needy people.
Don't tell me what to do.

What I Like About Being a SEVEN

being optimistic and not letting life's troubles get me down
being spontaneous and free-spirited
being outspoken and outrageous. It's part of the fun.
being generous and trying to make the world a better place
having the guts to take risks and to try exciting adventures
having such varied interests and abilities

What's Hard About Being a SEVEN

not having enough time to do all the things I want
not completing things I start
not being able to profit from the benefits that come from specializing; not making a commitment to a career
having a tendency to be ungrounded; getting lost in plans or fantasies
feeling confined when I'm in a one-to-one relationship

SEVENs as Children Often

are action oriented and adventuresome
drum up excitement
prefer being with other children to being alone
finesse their way around adults
dream of the freedom they'll have when they grow up

SEVENs as Parents

are often enthusiastic and generous
want their children to be exposed to many adventures in life
may be too busy with their own activities to be attentive

results taken from:http://www.okcupid.com/results/the-quick-painless-enneagram-test/?fromCGI=1&var_ABC=78&var_XYZ=27

2009-04-20T12:10:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since i had so much fun~ it's all abt nice companions to a trip of no stress and unfamiliar places! we need beautiful things to keep our eyes and minds occupied.. the beautiful flowers in spring are especially stunning and breath taking after 3 months of winter~ i never knew i loved water this much till i see those seas and falls and rivers and lakes..
thanks for all ur wonderful company! crazy moments, enduring my silly stunts, exciting card sessions, tiao xi game and all those good food and nice people... everything jus falls into place nicely! it's a closeness i've never felt in a long time, it's an openness i haven't let myself into in a long time, it's a great deal of comfort i haven't immersed myself in a long time!
it's such a pity everything ends and we end up in different places.. let's hope we meet again and go for a trip again someday! my well wishes to all of u out there~ we'll meet again!!

2009-04-07T00:48:00.002+08:00

看到阿桑走了的消息非常的震惊，以为他只是很久没出片了，没想到是生病了。最近听到太多令人难过的事情，大家一个个的都生病，甚至离开我们。真是无常啊！人生！
虽然非亲非故，但可能最近听到太多这类的消息，不免心中难过。留下来的大家虽然还是要过日子，但是就是少了一个人。
交流就快结束了，就要离开这寒冷的国度。ju问我准备好了吗，我不明白他的意思。是心情上准备好离开了吗。我说我比较想念新加坡，大概是哪里的大家让我比较温暖，也可能是那里的天气。但是在这里还是遇到了很好玩的朋友们。以后去香港找你们！
每个人的时间那么有限，要尽力用来装满开心精彩的事情。要在现实和快乐之间取得平衡。说得容易。。
还是要读书考试的，之后再好好的寻找精彩吧！--彩色的灵魂！！

2008-04-15T11:40:00.004+08:00

emerge08~~

xinyao ext concert~~

pj's bday outing!! april fool's day!

blk supper~ pizza/sushi/kfc/macs

2008-04-01T12:18:00.002+08:00

不想去争些什么。很累的。
做了一百件好事，只需要一件错事就够了。
不是故意的，我也顾不了那么多。
身体很疲倦，所以做事没劲。
也不知道自己在忙什么，就觉得时间过得太快了啦！
觉得我做事不认真吗，不是吧,
我在做都没人在看。
不说出来会憋死啊！
我是不吐不快的人，
可是没力去辩。
随便，不要想了。
肚子饿。
不要找我麻烦就好了。

为什么总是在别人的后面？！看不到吗？不够好。

2008-01-30T23:46:00.001+08:00

updates requested by granny... museum outing with yanyun, jolene, hera. beautiful statues from the louvre. raffles hotel gallery. chicken rice at bugis (not from the food court in the pic thou). spent the entire day together, walking, crapping and looking at things.. a random outing with my arty-farty friends but it's fun..
new year eve's countdown at shijun's place... probably the best turnout rate for class outing.. haha.. had lots of great food, watched tv and had lots of fun (amazingly) playing taboo with them. miss the randomness and lameness of these pple, jus so funny...
a short trip to jakarta. first time there. stayed at relative's place.. a very happy and nice family with the 2 sisters and the sister-in-law in the pic. travelling is a hassle, hours stuck in traffic jams and floods on the roads. lots of shopping and jus spending time with everyone... memorable trip.

2007-11-09T17:28:00.001+08:00

it's amazing how i started to discover that i like singing and actually dared to perform. still rmb the first time to k was with squaddies probably in sec2 or 3. dun even dare to sing into the mic and was disgusted at hearing my own voice from the speakers.

first time actually performing i really forgot. but it's in jc i rmb.

love to sing is a very misleading idea,

i love to sing and i think i should just sing in the box or sing in my little bathroom with excellent echoing effects.

performing is a pressure.

always cranking up before performances,

shud have done better is what i always thought

but was it already my best.

thinking too highly of myself.

shall not compare and shall not stress myself out.

really miss the way i sing in my little bathroom,

immersed and enjoying my voice from the echoes.

dun dare to sing here, dun wanna scare pple.

wadeva.

jus sing like how u want to,

shall learn to appreciate,

look less to others, look more into the soul.

2007-10-14T11:32:00.000+08:00

色。戒
我只能说太强了。情绪，气氛浓到了极点。每个眼神都在说故事的演员，让我忘了他们在演戏。

2007-09-26T20:44:00.000+08:00

Mid Autumn celebration with my blk girls!! haven't been playing with lanterns, sparklers and candles for such a long time.. reliving childhood..

2007-09-03T16:53:00.000+08:00

jus wanna post abt some random mood swings... still trying to get use to uni life.. too much new stuff to take on.. suppressed feelings, strangers... maybe i could've done better but i couldn't cope... disappointed maybe... random floods.. rainy season perhaps.. hope things get better.. i'm treating myself badly... horrible me.. i luv my friends. i luv mami.
random photos....

2007-08-18T12:01:00.001+08:00

had been doing hall stuff for the past few weeks.. abt hall.. i think i've put myself into a very interesting environment... meet very diff pple that i've not encountered before.. as in the way they interact with others.. but anw nice and friendly pple...

had loads of fun during orientation and rag.. back to busy days when pple work for a common goal..

my mum kept reminding me not to forget my old buddies... of course i wun.. dearest squaddies hope we'll still meet for steamboat again thou we peeps are gg diff ways..

it's jus the beginning.. let's hope there'll be more fun in the days ahead..

pre-sch blues

2007-07-28T14:18:00.000+08:00

i'm getting serious pre-sch blues... my mum says i'm always like tt when i go to a new sch.. i think so... but i'm seriously feeling quite bad... so anxious abt dunno wad but jus anxious.. dun feel like gg for anything.. so scared... ah~~~ i hope everything jus come to me smoothly... please.....

lucky star

2007-06-30T21:26:00.000+08:00

what a lucky day.. went to khalil's auto session.. nice live performance.. only saw his hair throughout cos was at the 2nd storey... din expect to get his auto but happens tt the queue was moving very quickly so managed to get an auto in the end... wanted to tell him he sings very well but couldn't even utter a word.. so just smiled and say thank you... but was already very happy to receive a 腼腆 smile from him.. haha.. everything seems to be in the right way! hope he'll be back for more promotion soon!!

2007-06-28T12:45:00.000+08:00

太久没写了。先记下今天想写的东西。这几个月。专辑。开学。
这几个月。
去年在考试前一直想着要在这长假里做很多事情。结果很多事还没做就要开学了。大家都在工作我整天看电视。只能看电视只想看电视。没赚钱所以不舍得花，虽然到处在减价。最值得记下的应该就是住院那段日子。现在还记得恐怖的感觉，不能转身的痛，还有针孔，像蜈蚣的疤。那种什么都不想管不用管，只要快点好起来就行了的感觉。谢谢妈咪，谢谢来看我，关心我的大家。
专辑。
在电视看到广告就特别想买。考虑了几天还是买了。很好听的歌，很有趣的人。这应该叫天分。能打动我的原因可能是他的频率和我的一样。就那些音符竟然可以写出那么多歌。羡慕这种灵魂里充满着感情和音乐的人。希望他能继续写很多好听的歌。方大同。
开学。
期待又害怕。懒得搬去宿舍但更懒得早起，懒得想每天要吃什么。希望会是精彩的。将遇到的大家，请你们丰富我的生活。

2007-03-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

这些奇怪的日子里，一切都在改变，很多意想不到的事情发生。大家都为了接下来的日子而忙碌着做准备。出乎意料的成绩让我无法控制的狂哭，也让我慷慨的请一起生日的大家吃雪糕。虽然带来了不少麻烦，但还是感恩惜福。大家为了不同的目标作了不同的选择。这几个星期与大家相处的日子很开心，虽然煮饭很麻烦，但不用洗碗，虽然没有走路的地方，但是多了笑声和你们的陪伴。亲爱的陈静，不知道什么时候可以再见，但这几天里一起逛街，一起吃饭，一起看电视吃雪糕很开心，很喜欢你的陪伴，但日子那么短暂。没有去送你是我的遗憾，都是因为太懒了。会不会那就是我最后一次可以见你的机会，希望不是。亲爱的王婧，不知道你是否会像他一样离开，但希望你是带着没有遗憾没有负担的心情去。那条破破烂烂的围巾希望你真的喜欢。因为实在太不舍，我在电话里哭了。对未来的日子害怕，期待。

2006-12-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

今晚突然觉得很难过，接到电话后就去和他们吃饭。翡翠的小笼包，那张桌子我们还会坐到吗？核桃露味道像花生，不是不好吃只是心情不对。明天他们两个都要走了，要等到好久以后才会再碰面了。坐着157在熟悉的路上，突然觉得很感伤。想着坐了6年的157，每天都会经过的路，一起坐车的人，虽然不认识但是还是有一种亲切感。以后可能没有机会一起坐车了。想念着以前没有冷气的157，很舒服的风，没有天亮的天空。会想念islandcreamery,coro,currywok,这些充满回忆的地方。特别会想念这些年在这条路上认识的人，还有那些只认得脸但不认识的人。见不到你们都会很不习惯。觉得真的没有好好珍惜这两年的日子，一眨眼就结束了。与大家的感情没有根深蒂固就要结束了。而且结束的太突然也没好好收拾心情。所以现在有很多遗憾，很多后悔。特别是一直放在心里的感情，没有表现出来，现在只会感觉酸酸的，什么都不能做。回忆里有很多你的画面，我想也只能这样了。

2006-12-06T13:29:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i visited my own blog.. everything has come to an end... finally finished exams... prom has ended too.. it seems as if there's nothing much to do now..
prom was fun on the whole thou din like the food.. haha... everyone looks very different.. all dressed up.. looking at pple was the most fun thing at prom.. helped wj and hera did their hair and make up... luckily it turned out ok...
the whole night was abt photo taking.. i haven taken so many photos before.. my face muscles were stiff after all those photo taking..
my only regret for the night was not to take photos with some pple.. pple tell me it's the best opportunity to take those pics during prom.. cos everyone is taking photos with everyone else.. but too bad i'm shy.. haha.. anw it's over now.. wad to do..
after prom actually wanted to go singapore river for a walk.. but we got lost and were walking in the opp direction.. our feet were hurting so much we walked around barefooted with the heels in our hands... eventually we gave up and decided to go back to hera's house.. we stopped at paragon to buy ice cream and sat along orchard in our dresses eating ice cream... paddle pop never tasted so nice... and we took pictures with the huge christmas tree outside paragon.. then continued to walk barefooted back to her house.. and we were warned of dog poo along the way.. wad a treacherous journey..

2006-09-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

i've come blogging again after ages since wanqi remineded me tt the post was a month ago.. listening to i'm not missing u by stacie orrico.. nice song.. have been indulging myself today.. watch the banquet, went for sushi buffet, bought myself a new album.. the big day, last day of prelims.. it has been a torturing month.. when it was 6 weeks before prelims i told myself i would start studying.. i did but it was so slow tt most of it was done in the week before my papers... horrible... the only word i can find to describe everything... it's been a horrible experience of not finishing papers and being so unsure of myself.. it feels bleak.. now i'm 6 weeks to 'a's... i'll study.. this time really study.. prelims has really scared me... getting insomnia before gp paper.. is tt bad enough.. haiz.. i shall not think abt it... today being last day of prelims i shall forget abt it for a while.. talk abt my day of indulgence then... banquet, nice actions, nice atmosphere but the palace really too grand to be true.. love zhou xun.. cry like dunno wad when she performed the song.. the lyrics, yue ren ge, so intriguing.. i need a piece of drifting wood.. i hope it just drifts to me quickly.. i'm gg to drown.. days after 'a's which are just 2 months away... look forward but afraid.. so much things i want to do but dunno how to.. i hope i dun waste those days.. such a precious long vacation...

2006-08-07T20:37:00.000+08:00

oh~~ i love the pple around me... they make me happy and high... makes me wanna go sch everyday... on qi xi me, yl, wj, jo, hera, van went to island to eat ice cream... it was celebration for qi xi.. which we tried to explain for umpteen times to van.. in the end we just admitted tt we wanted to eat ice cream using qi xi as an excuse.. haha.. wadeva.. but the ice cream was really nice.. apple pie~~ mud pie~~ today was esp random and funny.. i left my specs with the optician to change the lens.. so i was wearing my sec 3 specs to sch... life is quite exciting when u carn see clearly.. thou frustrating sometimes.. and i was asked why i din change my specs on fri so that i can get it the next weekday... but i stupidly just left the specs there last sat and i can only get back this sat.. so i have to live in the blur world for 1 whole week.. sorry if i dun say hi.. i really carn see u.. so today i made wj took a photo of the sun in the morning at chi high side during assembly... then in the evening we saw the sun setting and i asked her to take photo again but she insisted it was blocked by some brigde.. tt's not the xiao dian... after our curry wok dinner, we decided to go and take a look at awfully choc where we got the cake for sj.. it was just a white colour place with 2 black armchairs and a jar of water on a coffee table.. there's was no display of cakes at all but there was a container of choc ice cream.. the first time we walked past the shop w/o entering as it really din looked like a cake shop.. then we continue walking and found a cold storage which din used to be there.. we went in to look around and when we came out, dear wj almost knocked onto the glass door.. which she claim she din know it opens from the side... and i burst out in laughter... then we decided to enter the cake shop when we walked past again and as the shop keeper was attending to someone else.. i went out of the place and wj reminded tt i shud have at least asked abt the cakes.. then we thot it's too stupid, maybe another day when we are in some other clothes... then she said we shud pretend to buy ice cream then ask abt the cakes.. then i was puzzled and asked how to pretend to buy ice cream.. after the qn i burst out in laughter again in the middle of the rooad... i think it's the dinner making me too full turning me hysterical.. or is it just too much phy stuff in my brain... anw there's a whole list of activities coming up for the holidays... so exciting!! i love u pple!!!

2006-07-19T21:41:00.001+08:00

have been very slack.. went for 2 k sessions and did little work... results quite bad but starting to mug liao.. seriously...
anw have been having weird feelings tt i have never felt so strongly before... very bothered by these feelings.. but luckily found a nice sms pal to crap to..realise we really click so well... as i say it's like xiang feng hen wan... haha... back to those weird feelings... never experienced before so dunno wad they're leading me too... it either ends well or fades off.. i just hope it stops distracting me... i wanna tok sense and focus.. ARH!! but i think my pal there is experiencing tt too.. sharing my woes..
i dunno if it's becos of it tt i start to love karen mok's songs.. ni gei wo duo shao shi jian~~

2006-07-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

today was a very fun day! finally had outing with weiying and wanqi.. screaming our hearts out in kster.. it started as a joke at the busstop and we got wanqi who was on the bus home to make her way back... haha.. and i spent 1 hour standing at the busstop looking at 4 157s pass... singing songs like kang ding qing ge and wo zhi zai hu ni... so retro.. though i was constantly irritated by weiying, it was just sth i have to get used to.. as wanqi says dun hiu her... haha.. as it was an impromptu idea we were rather lack of cash.. so weiying suggested waiting for friends whom we can borrow some money from at the bus stop... and she managed to borrow 10 dollars... besides the singing and the several times of hanging of the system... we also got some tips at acting cute by the "keaijiaozhu" imposter, lee jia liu liu di da jie... no.1: add ren2 jia1 before every sentence, no. 2: personify everything... like when u drop bread on the floor say this, i think the bread is tong4 tong4...tt's the more basic stuff.. want more tips, look for her... anw i think it's really fun hanging out with these 2 crazy gals.. hope our next outing will be coming soon...

2006-06-29T21:40:00.000+08:00

just went to do some astrology tests cos i'm really drained after afternoon's paper... the readings say tt i need a lot of emotional security which i agree completely... these 2 years i've been gg back more frequently and i realised i seem to have become closer to my mum... which i feel very glad abt... i feel very safe and protected when i'm with her... mabbe it's cos i've always been floating emotionally.. there's no place i can land safely.. now tt i really feel the bond building up, i feel comforted.. pple who grew up with their family wun understand this kind of feeling where u have to try consciously to build bonds... it's tiring.. like this hols when i feel the closeness it only lasted the week and i have to come back here... i'm afraid the force of attraction will weaken and the next time i see her i'll have to try to patch it up again... mabbe the feeling of closeness is making me feel too safe or just the exams are making me too stressed up, i was reluctant to come back and i feel like gg back now... i want to relive my childhood which i've missed too much... i cry too easily because the tears are overflowing inside... i dun like to but i can't stop.. nobody offers a pat because i keep pple away... tired..

2006-06-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

4days to block test 2, 4 days to the end of my june hols... let me do a concluding report for my hols then... the first week at lep camp.. the second week was basically sick and thought that i was having dengue.. 3 days haunted by fever... 3rd week got pulled back to indo cos i think my mum is worried... so went back for the week and what i did: eat and eat and eat and watch tv and try to read a page or two from my econs notes.. thou din accomplish even a small part of my study plan, i was happy to be back... at least get away from singapore for a while... breathe some fresh air... came back on sat and went for mc anniversary on sun... was quite fun actually.. looking at faces that used to appear in tv walking in front of u... but not all appear to be as good as they seem.. anw i did a most incredible thing... i told him we're tong xiang... took a photo... he doesn't even know my name... haha... so funny.. the others were also busy taking pictures esp the guys... quite shocked to see them so crazy after those stars... haha... btw the cake was really nice.. i really hope to continue lessons.. may not lead me anywhere but just enjoy gg lessons.. it's an interest lah.. the last week... mugging.. or should i say last-minute sponging... trying to squeeze in as much stuff as possible... hmm... dun think will do very well this time... but at least i think my hols was quite fulfilling... not in the studies sense lah.. ok i shall continue to mug somemore... hope i wun die too badly this time round..

2006-06-06T20:51:00.000+08:00

a month has passed since i last blogged.... so many things happened and i shall start backtracking...
the night i went to watch dance night i lost my phone... so stupidly dropped my phone on the bus and only realised it when i was entering the school gate... lost all my interesting stuff inside and the phone was new.... arh~~~ some horrible person took the phone and din try to return it to me... and that led to a whole series of money spending activities like getting a new line in order to get a cheap phone and gg all the way to paragon to get my line cos i'm a foreigner and i must really thank nice wj who din mind accompanyiing me all the way there wearing not very orchard wear... but i've started my life all over again with a new line... everything's ok now...
it's such a traumatizing experience that i forgot to tok abt wad happened before that... the days before dance night we had performances at the fish tank... the system was not very good but the performances got better as we moved on... the amt we collected was not a lot but a lot better than we expected... and i really like chee yang's wo men xiao shi hou... it's touching... he's reallly got the software...
ok... next... i just came back from lep camp not long ago... four days in ntu were really fun... though we only helped to serve food and guide the pple around... i got to noe many interesting and funny pple... like dean, simin, yuanting, zihui, chaokiat... they're really funny pple... i oso got to noe a very fun person, actually i knew wanqi for a very long time since we're in ny but she was always known as matilda's good friend... haha... but these few days would not be so fun w/o her... all those conversations with fake angmoh accents, the crapping in the hostel the dean's meitui, the cancerians, the getting lost at some ulu part of the hostel.... and not forgetting the time we worked so hard in 6925... haha... there are so many things that i can continue abt but it's really too much.. hope we still keep in touch...
now... i'm sick... realised i've become weaker recently... getting sick more often these days... is it tt i'm getting old or i really carn take care of myself... so lousy... i was searching for some fever medicine and found some leftover ones from the last time i fell ill... it dates 3/3, only 3 months ago... haiz... let me get well soon... but it gave me a reason to not study so hard for blks... this carn do... i've to start working soon... i want to go back home...

2006-05-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

actually dun feel like blogging... but while waiting for my msn to download i shall write something... before this i was blog surfing, reading the lives of pple aroiund me.. so interesting... wad they write and wad they appear to be are so different.. i seem to be entering someone's inner world everytime i read their blogs... i dunno if pple put their true feelings in their entries but some pple's entries really touched me...
recently realised how troubled my friend is... troubles caused by guys around her... one leaving, one confessing, one just being nice... troubled... hope she'll find her someone soon.. be happy... u're a nice person, u deserve someone nice...
our fish tank performance is coming soon... through the practices and prep process, knew lots of new pple, understand some pple more, and learnt lots of new stuff... hope the performance is successful...

2006-04-30T20:01:00.000+08:00

i seem to be very off-touch with my surroundings... or is it jus things are happening too quickly... more and more people around are getting attached.. quite surprised to see people u never dreamed off being a couple walking around together... is it jus for the sake of being attached or really out of love?? nvm... jus be happy...
i love the feeling of being surrounded by music... i enjoy staying around at m.c... impressed by talented pple... so cool... i wanna immerse myself in music but how should i path my way towards tt?
was chatting online with chiayi.. being asked abt my plans.. i always told her i wanted to go overseas for uni studies but i dun seem to be enthusiastic enuff.. not doing enuff research and thinking.. but it may be becos i noe my chances of gg overseas is not very high... i noe this in my heart tt's why so passive...my wish to leave this place has wavered... i have forgotten why i wanted to leave in the first place.. wadever...
she wanna do psychology.. i think it's interesting but i thought her interest was in design... has she changed, maybe it's been a long time we've really talked or heard from each other... i'm confused.. i dunno how to path my way ahead.... n i'm still gg round and round in my piles of work... lots to catch up but not motivated at all... i dun see how i can touch the 4As.. long weekend... lost in confusion... confused....

2006-04-02T14:04:00.000+08:00

i finally get back my sundays....!! for the past few months i dunno wad i'm busy with but i dun remember staying at home for the whole day on sundays... i love slacking at home on sundays... just lie around and listen to songs... and do housework... such a good form of exercise... and when u see ur house is clean, u feel a sense of achievement.. haha.. it sounds quite crazy but it's true...
anw yesterday had a very very fun day... went for lep orientation.. thou i din get to help much in the organisation , i help to execute... anw i brought a bunch of j1s out to play something like amazing race then we completed our tasks so smoothly and quickly cos we've got a walking street directory in the group... then we got so much time tt we jus sat listening to yulaoshi tell us stories at his hui guan... haha... after tt we taught them songs and played mass game... the mass game is jus sth like catching lah, and the seniors just stood around and shoot our water guns at them... haha.. so fun.. i haven touched a water gun since dunno when... it's so tiring but just fun... i hope the j1s enjoyed themselves too... good job everyone!! after tt went with gg, shell, beng and jiao to ps for a good meal at pastamania... then i was very surprised when gg suggested gg to the arcade... she never look to me as a person who likes to go to the arcade... haha.. new discovery...
haiz... jus some randon stuff.. had this goal setting lesson for ct session... thou the lesson itself is quite funny, i actually thought seriously of my goals... i know i like music very very much, but to set it as my final goal i jus dun haf the courage... but i do hope i can work towards it... mabbe not become a singer or wad but jus sth to do with music... i really hope i can do sth i like as a job... cos i jus met too many of these pple these days.. pple who do wad they like as their job.. they become happy pple...

2006-03-27T21:46:00.000+08:00

horrible morning.. first time to be late for exam.... my goodness!! nightmare!! got stuck in a jam for abt half an hour cos of some accident... so decide to get off the bus, and get a cab... then as i walked on.. i realised the jam was very long.... so i had to walk for 3 bus stops before i got rid of the jam... then i took any bus that could take me nearer to school.. took 2 buses to reach school in the end... then side gate locked, so had to go to the main gate and run my way up to the hall... reach at 10.30, paper started at 10.15... the teacher looked at me with a frown, but i was too tired to explain, so i just quickly settled down to do the paper... luckily could finish..
after the paper, went to airport to welcome junhong and vanessa home... it's my first time picking up people at the airport... so many first times today.. anw got to see many other sportsmen.. so cool... saw my teacher from NY too... so proud of them!!

2006-03-19T12:04:00.000+08:00

had been busy with huang cheng for the past 2 months... enjoyed all the afternoons that we stayed back to work... sewing stuff, having full runs, and most imptantly gossiping.. haha.. though very tired, really really had a lot of fun.. esp the few days in VT.. so fun.. everyone just working towards the performances, thinking of nothing else... a lot of waiting time, but fuzhuang had lots of fun... eat and sleep and talk and sing and teasing ye zi and braiding everyone's hair into pigtails..everyone had done a great job.. wonderful memories.. it's very contradicting.. when u're working u want it to end quickly but when it's over u wished it had been longer... PHD, post huang cheng depression.. haiz.. and this week.. tried to mug for block test.. but keep getting sick.. now having running nose and coughing.. when u're sick and having depression it's really hard to get stuff into ur brain... how?!?!!
yesterday met a very interesting person at music clinic... a very interesting teacher/performer/musician.. so gifted in music and had experienced so much flying all over the world.. exposed to such a wide variety of music... admire and envy... i want an interesting life like him.. so inspiring.. ok... but i still have to get over my block test first before i can go pursue interesting stuff.. go back and mug...

2006-01-23T15:02:00.000+08:00

shall start blogging abt things tt happened recently... the orientation campfire was very very fun... i seemed to enjoy this one more than our campfire last year... so high!! esp the fac dances, so cool.. i think this batch of j1s are very enthu.. my class juniors seem very enthu too.. gg for all lessons conscientiously not like us... they are very fun pple and there're onli five pathetic girls among the 21 guys in their class... hope they dun get bullied..
went to watch xing qing rong ji on saturday... some of the songs are quite nice, esp the 'be with me'... the singer sings very well and she plays the keyboard very well too.. haiz... i wanna learn to play keyboard.. i've been wanting to for a very very long time.. but it's all tok and no action..
this morning, my alarm clock went dead.. i only woke up when a friend msg me.. i woke and saw my alarm clock stop at the time i set the alarm to ring.. though i set alarm on my phone too, i always switch it off unknowingly.. ok.. tonite i shall place my phone far away from my reach so that i can wake up punctually... ARH!! so scary~~~
lunar new year's coming soon... will be gg back to celebrate new year.. but actually there's no diff... anw wish everyone a very happy new year.. and always stay happy for the year ahead!!!

2005-12-21T13:07:00.000+08:00

introducing from left, shane, lala, me n xiaoziwu... at shilin guan di
Taiwan is so fun!!! really enjoyed the fifteen days there... have been the most fun times in this whole year... went to so many places, hualian,xitou,shilin night market, shidafuzhong,zhongzhenggaozhong.... and many more... feel that the people there are all so lively and friendly... also generally more good-looking, both guys and gals... mabbe cos they know how to doll up.. anw got to know a few taiwan friends like banyue, our adorable tour guide, bei ying sha shou chen da ge, and pple from the two schools... also had a lot of fun with pple in our group... wiki, wayne, shane, lala, datingting, xiaotingting, manman, xiaoziwu(purple haze), wanqi and so many more... and i got myself a new name... CHARLIE... it's diff from charlie wang, i'm charlie chocolate... haha... onli the taiwan peeps will understand... everybody seemed to have gone crazy... crazily fun!! really like the weather, like the scenery and everything that i've experienced there... met zhang shan wei and selina's sister too... so qiao.. I miss taiwan.. wanna go again... but right now back to my holiday hw... gtg do them now... there are some photos from the trip.. go click on photos!!

2005-11-27T11:28:00.000+08:00

This week had been very busy... with play... went to class chalet on mon and tue... play cards, walk in the rain, sitting around at the beach... relaxing, esp just lazing around the beach when the weather is not too hot... bbq on tue was quite pathetic... had it in the porch, got the whole room filled with smoke... quite amazed at seniors' culinary skills.. but my class guys are far from that... haha.. just to get them off the bed is a difficult task... thou turnout was not too good, it's really fun.. few pple but cosy, u can call tt...
wed mami came.. we went gaigai and got some stuff for my taiwan trip... really worried for her... memory getting quite bad and not very healthy... hope she can find some meaning in life... but she's as lazy as i am...
thurs went back to ny for ct selection.. standard getting lower... skills not very good... got terribly ill since morning... and had to endure thru the 3 hour briefing... my cough was killing me.. had fever went to see doctor and came home to sleep...
fri was a sleep day.. the medicine made me very very drowsy... jus slept and slept.. got a lot better the next day... sleep is indeed very effective...
still feeling quite weak... so haf to rot at home... hope will recover before the trip... looking forward to go taiwan!!

2005-10-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

i'm here to blog by the order of miss ho sihui.. so the story goes like this... i went to ice skate wif her this afternoon.... this is the first time we both skated since many yrs ago... and for me, it's the 2nd time in my 17 yrs of life to skate... so as expected i fell like nobody's business... at least 5 times i think.. and my butt is so wet... and my fingers were numb cos the gloves got wet too.... i think for the 2 hrs we skated.. i only managed to go round the ring like 5 times... while dearest sihui went like 20... haha.. anw the place snowed... they let down some foamy stuff like snow... thou it's quite fake.. but it's so beautiful... and sihui insisted on gg to the centre of the ring to get some of the foam on herself... so we continued skating until our legs were hurting like mad... anw in the midst of skating, i performed an impressive act.. i managed to keep my balance by squatting on the ice, cos my butt was so determined not to hit the freezing ice... oh.. and i met my cadet there... i was like gg to fall and suddenly someone skate past me and said "hello ma'am"... it was really embarassing... cos i kept falling and once right in front of her.. haha... so on the whole, this skating outing was really fun... skating is so exciting.. i bet no one will experience tt kind of leg trembling and heart thumping like me...after skating, we went to kfc and i had my dinner.. then we took the shuttle bus to imm and walked around.. we met mrs soh and her husband i think... they were choosing some lighting.. i commented tt sihui skates better than she walks.. she loses balance while walking and can't walk with her legs closer together but when she skates, she's perfectly fine... so we looked at all the furniture shops and fantasize our future homes... having all those very very nice furniture...it was abt 7.30 and we decided to go home.. then we waited for the shuttle and we purposely missed one cos it's real packed..we tok crap for like 15 mins while waiting for the bus.. and when the bus came, i went up without noticing tt poor sihui got her shoelace stuck in the holes on the seat... and we planned to go back to ny to teach while wating for our 'a's results.. tt's jus a suggestion.. haha... dun think it'll come true.... i gather tt conversations with sqdmates are really relaxing cos we dun use brains... ok... skip to the part on my mrt trip back home.. i was stoning on the mrt until it was one stop before i reached home.. then a caucasian lady sat beside me and asked"so how're u doing tonite?" i was quite surprised then i din noe how to ans so i jus say ok.. then she asked "so u're gg home?" and i said "yah"... then i reached my stop and before i got off i said bye to her... i think tt she's really very friendly... but it's a rare experience tt one wud get in singapore.. i think we shud become more friendly towards strangers... mabbe we're to shy to tok... ok.. then let's smile.. smile to someone next time u're outside.. it's nice if u receive a smile in return...

2005-10-23T14:07:00.000+08:00

it was the worst or the second worst experience with projects.. thou i'm already at the last lap, i still feel very very tired, not a sign of relief... how i hope everything can end asap... i dun wanna touch PW again!! my frustration and agony have been bottling up and recently it has overflowed.. my poor grpmates mus haf suffered fom all my blasts... but it's all directed to one particular person actually... i carn do anything, all i can do is jus nag.. i bet i've aged like twenty yrs over this yr.. i dunno how we'll fare for this last lap.... but i still hope everything can end smoothly.. it din start well, it din go well but at least let it end well!! please...

2005-10-13T01:17:00.000+08:00

刚做完我的专题作业。。现在是凌晨一点多。。虽然很累可是不想睡。。很想写些东西。。前段时间带了一个多月的隐形眼镜。。有人觉得我的眼睛好象要跳出来一样。。很恐怖。。隐形眼镜带得蛮舒服的，但是后来还是决定不再配多一副。。不敢带。。觉得很没有安全感。。好象赤裸裸地面对着世界。。还是比较习惯带眼镜，躲在眼镜的背后。。不知道在怕什么，只是不敢太直接地面对世界或者说我自己。。算了。。好好地带我的眼镜就好了。。想太多。。晚上总是比较喜欢胡思乱想。。去睡吧。。去睡了。。再见！

2005-10-11T21:14:00.000+08:00

finally finished my long and torturous exams... locking myself at home for five days was really a very challenging task... but i figured that the things i did in those five days were really more meaningful and fruitful than any other normal school days.. had nice conversations with mami, xiaowei, and some imposters.. cook myself nice food... life is so simple.. wake up early,study, eat, study, eat, watch tv, sleep.. the moment my last paper ended.. i was surprisingly not excited at all... all i felt was emptiness.. as if my life is going to change again... no more-stay-at-home-all-day days... aimless.. though i was very gek during the five day break when everyone was telling me where they go play, when i had the chance to play i dun feel very happy... yesterday was really a bad bad day... paper din finish, had some project to do... then went for dinner met a weird person who told me my face is very dirty, i shud not eat fried oyster... then came home and broke a plate... everything was jus wrong.. as if all these were preempting something... today went to sing k, then walked around orchard for 3+ hrs then went to eat ajisen... singing k was really relaxing but after tt all the bad mood jus returned.. now i'm feeling extremely horrible while i type all these.. dunno why... haf to go school again tml... shall i put a paper bag over my head.. i dun wanna see anyone... very tired to need to respond to everyone and everything around... jus let me be emotionless and motionless for these few days... can i?! ARH~~~ papers are coming back on fri and the following week... dun really expect good results... but pls let me promote.. i dun wanna to worry i dun wana think abt anything... my brain cells need time to regenerate.. pls forgive me anyone who has read till this point.. i shudn't pass all these negative emotions to u... but i need to let all these things out... ok when i end this entry i shall jus go to sleep and tomorrow WILL be a better day!! hope... nitez...

2005-08-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

everything's finally over.... did ok for both geyao and SA comp... at least din make very big mistakes that i'll regret for life... and throughout the SA comp made many new interesting friends.. and oso got to see a lot of famous pple like Junyang.... haha... dun jealous... really an enriching experience...hope there will be more opportunities like this in the future...
so now... life's back to normal... haf to start mugging... promos coming soon... ARH~~~ anw jus hope can do better for promos...
haf been practising the 'be happy' trick... have been quite useful.... hope it'll become a habit soon...
OK... shall get back to work.... everyone let's mug together!!!

2005-08-11T10:01:00.000+08:00

刚上了苏老师的课，有很多想法。。。有很多事情我们真的应该学会放开，人活着最重要是开心。。。每天早上要对着镜子，看看真正的自己，告诉自己今天要开心。。。天天这样做。。。让开心变得像呼吸一样平常。。。做让自己开心，让别人开心的事。。。不要变成那种走过连草都会被毒死的人。。。人要懂得自我催眠，像老师说的，人只是一团细胞但他有强大的意志力，只要自己想要做一定可以的。。。经过挫折后才能真正散发出自己的光辉。。。也无风雨，也无晴。。。对每件事都要以平常心对待，不要总是想着经历过的煎熬，也不要对眼前的光芒抱有太大的希望。。。隧道的尽头有光芒，但那可能是迎面而来的火车。。。事情的变与不变要看我们从哪一个角度观察来决定。。。不要怕死就不会怕生，人有死的勇气就应该有活的勇气。。。珍惜生命吧，朋友。。。我在想，人会怕死可能是因为生活给他们留下太多放不下的东西，人与人之间所培养出的各种感情。。。现在的我们什么都得从书上学习，生命是用来体会的，多看电视吧。。。你有为了电视节目哭过吗？人情。。。
那么多的想法，在面对生活的时候可能用不上。。。但至少有这些想法代表没有盲目地过生活。。。

2005-08-10T12:16:00.000+08:00

had a lot of fun on sunday.... went to sentosa wif classmates... and seniors... thou there was a little argument in the middle but it was ok after a while... we swam and played ball in the sea... everyone kept teasing the scandalous pair in class... then went to cine for dinner... celebrated bdae for shijun... but the pasta was not nice... and din get to eat the bdae cake... anw everyone was burnt...
went for a movie after celebration on mon... went to watch charlie and the choc factory... the scenes were very nice... a lot of colours... but the story was a bit morbid... on the whole the movie is still very nice..
yesterday was National Day... brought a group of china students to PS to shop then went to jurong east to watch the fireworks... fireworks was very nice.... esp the part where it looked like waterfountain... then shell, chere and her no. 1 went to have an uncle ringo ride... they look so farni... the biggest among little kids... thou the day was tiring but still fun lah... hope our hosting wasn't too bad...
geyao this saturday... very worried... hope everything goes well... and hope wun get scolded again...

2005-08-06T20:22:00.000+08:00

Friday was a bad day... sang horribly during announcement.. even got comments tt i was acting cute... in the afternoon went to SA for rehearsal... got commented tt my movements on stage are very weird and ugly... then rushed back for geyao rehearsal after tt... tt was the worse part of the day... got scolded twice by the PA staff.. first time for interrupting his conversation wif fengyi... second was when i tapped the mike... then it came the worst moment... i was on stage to test out the sound system.. then the music played... i din noe how to sing wif the music cos it was the first time hear the arrangement... i was feeling very helpless... the stage light was so glaring i carn see anyone in the audience and i couldn't follow the music... so i said "fengyi i dunno how to follow the music" and got off the stage.... very disappointed... then got comments tt my costume blended into the background... everyone was wearing very glamourously except me...i realised my confidence level has been going lower and lower..... this cannot continue... pls somebody help me bring back my confidence before the 2 competitions.... pls somebody help!!
anw to my fellow lep council peeps and all who helped out at the event.... good job... the event was successful... and thanks to all the actors and actresses for the skit... u all were great!!!

2005-07-30T10:40:00.000+08:00

went for briefing for the SA comp yesterday... we got to tok to the judge... then he said he chose my song cos it's happier diff from the other songs... then he said i haf to improve on my singing and then he made a comment: "cannot change singer already rite?" yah... he said tt... mabbe it was jus a slip of the tongue but i think it's from the bottom of his heart.... sad... so actually i carn sing... since even professional say i dun sing well then i really dun sing well.... recently friends haf been saying tt i sing quite nicely, causing me to have the illusion tt i can sing... the comment was quite a "da3 ji1" for me... pple, pls dun say i sing nice anymore....

2005-07-28T18:35:00.000+08:00

how long haven i been updating? the blog looks abandoned... anw let me update on wad happened these few weeks... shall not tok abt sad stuff like block tests... i've got good news... got into finals of geyao and sajc song composition comp.... last saturday went for geyao prelims... so nervous lah... never practised the song with accompaniment before.... but luckily managed to pull it off... after geyao prelims went to zpop in the evening...
was very tired after geyao... initially din wanna go zpop but at home oso rot so decided to go... nobody wud wanna see wad i wore tt evening... like an auntie loh... cos i was really sian... but zpop was really nice... hear quite a few very nice songs... like the jin sha, fan weiqi, ah sang, tanya... they all sing life very nice... anw since the place was very dark i sang and screamed like nobody's business.... anw i onli managed to hear voices considering my height.... was quite surprised to see ser chuan there too... din noe he so on one... haha... me and wang jing left after jj sang... we wanted to go PS to eat shilin ji pai but was too late onli had mee sua left... din like the mee sua so was still very hungry so dear wj was very nice to offer to treat me ice cream.... so we just sat at PS and ate our ice cream... really enjoy this kind of slack moments... then we went home after the ice cream treat...
had half day school on tue... but effectively onli 2 periods of lessons cos i had 3 period break...then went kbox wif wj, vaneh and yunling... had a nice time singing.. hope vaneh had a great time too since she's leaving for italy in sept....
this afternoon met joelyn in the canteen.... had lunch wif her... as usual we tok... then realised haven seen squadmates for a long long time.... had been missing squad outings.... hope to see squadmates real soon...

2005-07-08T21:00:00.000+08:00

haven't been updating for a while... did really badly for blocks... already got 2 'o's... have been telling a lot of my friends abt this... i'm not really sad cos i really din study well... jus feel bad so hope to get some encouragement and motivation from my friends... anw i have to work really hard from now on so tt i dun get retained....
anw jus read a very nice quote:"stay hungry. stay foolish." There is no explanation for it but i guess it's sth like this... when u stay hungry then u'll be able to appreciate how nice food is, when u stay foolish u jus live life as it is , dun regret any decisions u have made for urself... u may end up wif sth good becos of tt decision but u may onli see it many years later.... "live every day of ur life like it is the last..."

2005-07-01T21:57:00.005+08:00

刚读了我一位华文老师的网上日记，突然很想用华文写...她的日记很好看，里面有写一些她不爽的事情，超酷的！
今天在巴士上和婧谈了一些事情，突然讲到小S要结婚了，我还一直以为她才二十一，二岁，然后婧说她妈妈说我们都长大了，别人也到了要结婚的年龄。这让我忽然发现我有一种很奇怪的想法，我以为世界还停留在很多年前，没有发现自己长大了...还是我选择了让时间停留在那个时候，因为日子是快乐的...人总是喜欢在某些时候或对某些事情选择性地失忆,但我想我总是把每件事都记住,是不是多余的，我应该学会放下...我需要时间想，但日子实在很烦，懒得想...能白目地过日子也是一种幸福吧！

2005-07-01T19:16:00.001+08:00

block test's over... finally... really disappointed wif my own performance... but serve me right lah... din prepare well... haiz... end of one nightmare beginning of another.... anw after hols, suddenly dread school a lot... my mood is always on a negative gradient... very tired now.... i bet millions of brain cells died...
shall share a lame joke here... once there was this old man who sells hats.. then one day he was sitting under a tree then a monkey took his hat... he remembered monkeys liked to imitate so he clapped his hands then the monkeys followed... then he swayed his hands the monkeys oso followed... then he pretend to take off sth from his head then the monkey took the hat off and dropped it... so the old man got his hat back... then the old man went home and told his grandchildren abt this... many years later, one of his grandchild oso sold hats and he too came to this tree and a monkey took his hat away too... then he did wad his grandpa told him... but when he pretend to take off sth from his head, the monkey stuck its tongue out at the grandchild.... then he felt very puzzled and said," but my grandpa said u will drop the hat..." then the monkey replied, " do u think u r the onli one who has grandpa?!"
Got it?

2005-06-23T18:51:00.000+08:00

hey peeps!! i'm finally back... spend 1 whole week with a bunch of aunties and uncles... average age gap: 30+ to 60+... so amazing rite... first time i really understand wad pple call generation gap... nvm... tt's not the main pt... let's tok abt the trip...
first day went back to indonesia... next day took a ferry to kukup, a place in johor, then got driven to pontian, another place in johor... slept over there for one nite and left for Senai airport in the morning... took a plane to kuching, a place in sarawak, then took another plane to miri, another place in sarawak... at miri we had two nites of 8 course dinner consecutively... had really bad indigestion... then went to brunei for a day tour... then came back to tour miri the next day... and for the rest of the one and a half day left... i spent my time in the hotel room studying physics while my mum go shopping... spent 7 days like tt...
it was an even more tiring trip back.. took plane to kuching then to senai... then took a cab to a bus interchange and took a bus to johor custom... then took another bus to cross the causeway then took a bus to get out of the singapore custom... then took a taxi back home... spent 3/4 of the whole holiday traveling...
miri is a nice place lah... slow pace... but not much things to see... but i saw ye4 jun4 cen2, an ex mediacorp actor in my hotel... ok u all might not noe him... nvm... oso i say miri is a nice place becos i went to brunei... i tell u... it's like an enlarged version of bukit timah... everywhere is filled with bungalows and trees... u cannot see a single motorcycle or bicycle around cos everyone there has cars, not 1 but 3,4 cars... cos the instalment is like $36 a month... and as we drove along the road, we saw no human being around, only buildings and trees... very huang1 liang2.. so we spent one day sightseeing, but really saw not much interesing stuff... my trip sounds boring rite... yes cos it's really boring!!! the only thing i like abt the trip is the sarawak pineapple... so sweet loh... it's the sweetest and juiciest pineapple i've ever eaten in my 17 years of life!!!
so my conclusion: want to have a nice holiday, go wif ur family and friends onli, and dun go to the main cities, go places more exotic, may haf more adventures... ok shall hope tt my next trip anywhere will be better... and wish myself and everyone taking mid-years good luck!!!

2005-06-15T10:54:00.000+08:00

very excited over my blog... now i understand why everyone's getting themselves a blog... it's not really about the entries by the bloggers but the tags pple put up... so happy to see pple tagging already!! hey everyone, continue to tag ok!!
anw yesterday tried to cook myself a new dish... hmm... i mixed chopped up vegetable with chopped up luncheon meat and egg together... then fried it... i was worried the veg was not cooked enuff so decided to leave the thing frying for like ages... in the end guess wad happen? my egg was burnt but the veg was still not cooked!! anw since i cooked it so i haf to eat it... and i ate it... haven tried bitter egg before... come look for me... i wun gif up... shall continue cooking up new dishes... await my new inventions.... haha... lesson learnt: fry ur ingredients, make sure they're cooked before pouring in the egg...

My first entry!!

2005-06-14T13:37:00.000+08:00

hi to anyone visting my blog... i was reading my friends' blogs then realised pple haven been updating... felt quite sian so started a blog myself... feeling real bored recently... trying to get myself to start revision but not very successful... anw i'll be gg to brunei for err.... holiday.... weird place i noe... but hope will have a nice time wif my parents... carn think of anything else to say so shall end here...